after studying so hard! finally getting some better results. so far haven had any fails for my test yet.... hopefully this will continue .... just hoping that wednesday my running be at the top 75, haven train for a long time but people are giving me too HIGH EXPECTATIONS, seriously, dun expect much from a person that haven jog for 7 months.
Somehow when dreams and wishes become unrealistic, i really wish my dream will true, someday, if u could ever give me a chance to prove myself to you..
Feb 26, 2011
thoughts bout you just seem to be overflowing in my mind today, i think this friendship which i had put so much effort into, is really breaking apart...... sad much.. i just its just impossible me for me to study today, i doubt u will even give a second look in this friendship animore...... perhaps its just me making this wrong decision in my life
very very tired today
6:59 PMthese few days went on as normal, guess this mindset that we can be together is completely crushed. had a real fun time with my frens yesterday. we went to 1 of my frens house and played mahjong overnight. slept throughout the entire bus ride home today, real real tired. when i reach home, i continue sleeping from 9 to 4, guess, i will have to start my studies for my CT today.
Feb 23, 2011
average day ~ today
8:52 PMtoday, lessons went on as usual, nothing unique occur today. today went out with my frens to eat after school. not much thinking going through my head today, i think, i am finally ready to give my life a fresh start, hopefully.........
Feb 22, 2011
i guess even now our friendship has started to deteriorate.
8:30 PMToday started off with a bad stomach ache, probably due to food poisoning from my mee siam yesterday. today's PE lesson, we played netball........ was rather enjoyable, other then the fact that my hand was very red due to Tedmond Xian. somehow, he keeps hitting my hand when i have the ball. Today, i also manage to finish up all my math Homework and handed up my physics Spa on time. contented. towards the end of the day, everything went fine. till i boarded the bus 966. well.... she also boarded the bus seat beside me. wanted to talk to her at first, but i realise that i have nothing with her in common to talk about, stoned most of the bus journey home. well, this just goes to show that now even my friendship with her has deteriorate greatly. last year, we would meet up before and after school to take bus and chatted the whole journey home, now everything seemed to have changed. The times that we spent together, the close ties that we used to have, all gone now? i guess so, judging from today turn out. We used to stayed late in school for night study/project work, go home together... doesnt these things matter to you anymore? dont you even appreciate a single thing i have done for you. i guess i am just foolish........ sad..
Feb 21, 2011
today, a day well spent
10:44 PMwell, today was the first day i sat @ the back of the class, after an unexpected change in seating arrangement, which resulted in the lost of my "window seat".today i had a physics CA test as well, really regretted not studying not physics test! forgot how to do some of the questions, no hope for an A already, just hoping for a pass for that test =(. i got back my econs test results today! 13/25, well its not a very good score, but its the highest score in class, together with 3 other person. i was quite contented with the results. I didnt really study for the test, but i guess listening in lectures do help alot. I guess its time to place A level as first priority, guess i have to study harder from today onwards........
Feb 20, 2011
what a tiring day yet fun day today.
9:14 PMMet up with my old frens today! had a real fun time. Today i finally get to enjoy a BEEF steak! hehe, moreover, this meal was a treat by my frens' parents! trying not to dwell in the past, well! lets just hope tomorrow will be a better day =).
btw, i lurve this song now!http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YgFyi74DVjc
Feb 18, 2011
when some1 u trust so much betray you, what will u do?
10:30 PMwhack him, ignore him, take it out on him......? betrayed by someone u trust, this feeling sucks! totally. Well, I guess I can never be close friends with him animore, this friend, my once close friend, betrayed me by backstabbing me. well, i somehow cant bring myself to forgive him, perhaps some day i will......
Feb 17, 2011
finally, a day i am back home early!
5:29 PMfinally! i can do 2 pull ups, proper ones! happy much. finally weight training and gym have shown some improvement. today, during religion n ethics period, the topic was abortion. This topic has been covered many times, but somehow, today lesson was indeed unique, there was pretty much i learnt there. thats all the good part of today. the bad part?, somehow, i have this feeling that she is constantly avoiding me, for some reasons or another. thinking about it, there was nothing, nothing that i did, that would have led to this, so why, why is she avoiding me? confused much... i had already sort of lost all my hopes for her already? so now, this close friendship that we share will come to an end as well, i seriously hope this will not happen. looks like my worst fears are coming true soon...
Feb 16, 2011
just trying out blogging!
11:40 PMi am giving blogging a try! well a quick look at the summary of my life in JC so far. Academically, i am doing fine. well well, i could have did better if time was spent on studying on not on other stuff. this time had been spent on computer gaming and to chase this girl that i had liked for very long. Turns out that 1 year of my life had just gone pass in this way, wasted and scarred. It took me this long to realize that i can never be together with you. Currently, my life now is rather okay, most of my time now are mostly dedicated to studying. lets just hope tomorrow will be a better day =)