just woke up...... from my sleep. had a dream that really spark me to think what am i really going to achieve in my life. I guess i cant control fate, but well i control the actions i do for my life. Am i really going to waste my life away thinking that someday in my life you will give me a chance to proof myself to you? well, thats what i wanted to do initially, but is it even worth doing so.... chances is that my life just be wasted away. I guess I really will have to try harder to forget you, not working very well, given the amount of time i had given up for you in a year, somehow it occurred to me that perhaps these moments we spent together is only treasured by me, unfortunately. I went on to such great length to help u, aint u able to forgive me for that 1 mistake i made before? is it really that difficult for u? perhaps it is... I just want u to know that, I will be there for u, no matter how u were to treat me, even i really had given up all hope. just somehow, its just my sad life.....
